1/2 a year!

Today has been super hard. We are in Hilton Head on vacation. A place you loved and we have so many memories here. I do not want to be here without you. I do not want Sam to drive the Go-Kart by himself (and he did not want to either). He was crying in Harbor Town - not wanting ice cream or candy because he missed you so much. While driving the Go-Kart (by himself), he did declare that it was the best day ever....But, not really - because you are gone. Jack joined us on vacation this year which I know you would have loved! This Momma heart cannot figure out what to feel - I am so happy to have Jack and Andrew and Ashley here with me but why are you not here also?! I have been looking at pictures from 2 years ago when we were here and rented the house right next door to where we are - Margaux is remembering borrowing your clothes b/c she did not pack enough -we are looking for gators and remembering how you loved to do the same... Life is a new kind of not normal without you here....